In Love With Love

There are so many things that consume my thoughts, but the most of these is of course, love. I'm not talking about puppy love, but love that lasts a lifetime. As humans, we are so fickle when it comes to relationships. It amazes me how much we allow our hearts to take. Love is like chocolate. (Well, to me.) After the first time we taste it, it's so amazing and we want more!! Soon, we're tired of just regular chocolate. So, to create some diversity, we go get chocolate with almonds and then that becomes boring and then it's chocolate with peanut butter and so on. Pretty soon we eat so much chocolate that it becomes a daily part of the diet. When we get bored, we throw it away and get something new. Like chocolate, love is something that we crave. It feels so right at first and then it slowly fades. That is not love, it's infatuation. That is a dangerous mistake to make. Love is not something you can throw out. I will openly attest to being tired of infatuation. Been there, done that! Everytime I go there, I tear out a part of my heart that is suppose to be meant for one person for my entire life. I really can't wait to find "The One", but I guess i'll have to. Sometimes I get so lonely that I feel like I am suppose to be celebate for my entire life. But life is young for me and I can't base my future on that thought. Other times I feel greatful to be single because i'm not tied down and I am free to be independent and not have to rely on hurting my partner's feelings. I feel really bad for the people who feel that they aren't worth anything w/out a bf/gf. I also feel bad for the people who don't stay single for long and the ones who don't keep a relationship very long either. I was talking to my father the other day and he said that he personally believes people shouldn't date until they are eighteen. I agree with him, actually. Looking back, I realize that if I had committed to not dating till I was 18, I would have saved myself a load of heartache. As of today, I am not going to date until I feel that I am wise and mature enough to take care of another person. I will not date till God sees fit for me. It will be hard for me at times, but if God is the God of my heart, then I will not fail. I also commit to not dating until God has revealed "The One" to me. It may be tomorrow or it may be never. I leave it in Gods hands.